Seasons of Life...

Lately God has been bringing people from my past back into my life in the present. I am wondering, what does this mean? I am wondering, what is God speaking through this? I am wondering, what is God saying to me now? Why is it that friends from college are reappearing in my life now? Why is it that friends from long ago are present again? Last month we had a group of friends from Intervarsity Christian Fellowship meet for a "mini reunion" and dinner to honor one of our friends serving in missionary work. What a warm blessing it was to get to see everyone again. A few months I joined a new home group at my church. Half the members were friends from my past. The worship leader who taught me how to play guitar, the small group leader who helped me deal with spiritual life, the Korean girl who used to be my roommate, and the couple who are spiritual mentors. I think about the friends from high school getting reconnected through facebook. And, I think about the many friends from Korea that I can connect through email, facebook and cyworlding. I'm not clear of the meaning of it all, but, I am ever grateful for the circle of life, the circle of friends, He's provided throughout my life. And, these days, I am always thinking of returning to Korea. Not for ministry purposes this time, but for financial purposes. And, I think of friends He's given in the past. Then I dread the idea of starting all over again. But, why should I dread, when He has always been so faithful to provide what I've needed? So, I don't know if and when I'll return to Korea someday. I think the sooner the better. But, sometimes I think, waiting is good too. I trust the Lord is leading me. And, yes, like my friend Jolie said, life is good.

Thoughts on Soyoung's Passing

One lesson I gain from Soyoung's death is to live life! LIVE LIFE to the full, and to the max. This is the lesson I glean from Soyoung.

the women's in house retreat...

My plan was to have a group of friends over for dinner and games, but God had other plans. I went to work, as usual for a Saturday. Then afterwards my friend picked me up, and we went over together to the church for a woman's in-house retreat. Wow, was I blown away, and blessed! We had a wonderful dinner then worship and a guest speaker. It was a fabulous time. Our speaker told the story of how Yorba Linda was changed forever by the life of one man, one obedient man, one obedient man to the gospel of Jesus Christ. He had experienced difficulty in life, and who hasn't? But, instead of turning into bitterness and unforgiveness, he chose to forgive a man for a crime committed against one of his own family members. That decision resulted in alot of good outcomes, especially for the city of Yorba Linda. He began to go door to door to share his faith, he had an urgency for people's salvation; he didn't want to see anyone go to hell. This person got saved, another got saved, including the pastors to be, John and Carol Wimber. They eventually started a church what is now known as the Vineyard Christian Fellowship, and God has used the Vineyard globally, worldwide. All because one man obeyed. One man chose obedience to the Lord, forgiveness over bitterness,and the world has been blessed because of it. How many vineyard worship songs have you ever sung or heard of? So, I hope today that we become people who choose obedience to the Lord rather than bitterness. Who knows what good God can do? By the way, I feel so blessed from attending the women's "in house" retreat this evening.

song of solomon...

Studying the song of solomon has been by far one of the best decisions I have ever made! The book is rich, and there is just sooo much in there! I am studying it like Jesus is the Groom and we, the church, are the Bride. I am really hungry for the Lord, and I feel like I just can't get enough of Him! Really!!

today's trials...

I have a few trials I am currently persevering through. One is seemingly feeling like I don't have any friends. Of course I do have friends, but, I don't feel a tight-knitted bond with anyone. Who is looking out for me? Who am I looking out for? At least when I lived in Korea, we all took care of each other better I think. Also, I don't earn enough money to pay all the debts, so that is a BIG drag! I am able to pay for rent, and food, but beyond that, life is rough. I can barely save anything to pay off debts, let alone buy a car. Basically, I am just plodding along, one foot in front of the other. But, I am not making any progress. Drats! So far, it hasn't gotten me too down, but, I can't stay like this forever, you know? Something's got to give, soon.

what is good in my life?

There are many things for which to be thankful. Let's see, first one comes to mind is living in a home rather than at a bus stop or on the street. . And, playing around with my new toy, the ipod, is fun too. I enjoy studying Korean, and hanging out at the Korean spas and saunas in K-town. I have alot of good memories of friends I have made over the years. And, I get to sleep in a bed, not the floor. I live in a nice, temperate climate, not a cold, rainy or snowy one. And, I have good health. These are the good things in my life right now.

'm tired...

I'm tired of never having enough money! Yesterday I was really upset, but, thankfully Friday is payday.