Tuesday, August 4, 2009
A few months back God had been speaking to me about missions. I thought I would go somewhere and serve God overseas. But, that wasn't happening at that time. So, I decided if I can't go abroad right now, then that I would be a part of "sending" other missionaries who are serving abroad. God led me to 3 girlfriends: Hanna, Grace and Debbie. Hanna is an MK from the continent of Africa, serving as a medical doctor. Grace is a Korean gal I've known 10 years involved in church planting. Debie, from West Virginia, is serving the Lord in India alongside with her family. Once I realized God wanted me to serve them, as intercessor, I began to "support" them in this way. Although it's not MY first choice to "send" them, becuase I'd rather "go", this is what God has for me now, and, I am content with that!!
Lately God has been bringing people from my past back into my life in the present. I am wondering, what does this mean? I am wondering, what is God speaking through this? I am wondering, what is God saying to me now? Why is it that friends from college are reappearing in my life now? Why is it that friends from long ago are present again? Last month we had a group of friends from Intervarsity Christian Fellowship meet for a "mini reunion" and dinner to honor one of our friends serving in missionary work. What a warm blessing it was to get to see everyone again. A few months I joined a new home group at my church. Half the members were friends from my past. The worship leader who taught me how to play guitar, the small group leader who helped me deal with spiritual life, the Korean girl who used to be my roommate, and the couple who are spiritual mentors. I think about the friends from high school getting reconnected through facebook. And, I think about the many friends from Korea that I can connect through email, facebook and cyworlding. I'm not clear of the meaning of it all, but, I am ever grateful for the circle of life, the circle of friends, He's provided throughout my life. And, these days, I am always thinking of returning to Korea. Not for ministry purposes this time, but for financial purposes. And, I think of friends He's given in the past. Then I dread the idea of starting all over again. But, why should I dread, when He has always been so faithful to provide what I've needed? So, I don't know if and when I'll return to Korea someday. I think the sooner the better. But, sometimes I think, waiting is good too. I trust the Lord is leading me. And, yes, like my friend Jolie said, life is good.